"the story begins with you and me."
P L A Y . T H E . P A S T:
Monday, May 31, 2010, 22:13
一切是如此的不可思议
如果不是尝过苦涩的滋味
我想我不会发现
你早已悄悄的在我心中
注入了一口甜蜜
这是触动的感觉
- 海派甜心
21:59
That's fast. It's already the third Monday since the friend had gone. I'm still missing him though, I feel him around the class.
Frankly speaking, ever since the start of year 3, everything in school seem tasteless to me. Well, maybe except lab practices although the theory parts can be quite dry.
Other than that, some things are quite good but a few are going down the hill.
I didn't quite understand, that why some idiots just ruined everything. All are getting on our nerves, and all are giving up, just because of those.
IT'S REALLY NOT WORTH IT.
This afternoon, I told her.
"Do I take that as losing a friend?"
No, I didn't want to think this way. Neither does she. Nobody wants. Tell me, who exactly would want such thing to happen?!
Each, is giving up. What else can each individual do? Nothing, to be precised.
"这种感觉, 此刻, 要我如何面对. 我要怎么和你往来, 你说说看~"
- 茉莉恋 by Jam Hsiao.
Frankly speaking, ever since the start of year 3, everything in school seem tasteless to me. Well, maybe except lab practices although the theory parts can be quite dry.
Other than that, some things are quite good but a few are going down the hill.
I didn't quite understand, that why some idiots just ruined everything. All are getting on our nerves, and all are giving up, just because of those.
IT'S REALLY NOT WORTH IT.
This afternoon, I told her.
"Do I take that as losing a friend?"
No, I didn't want to think this way. Neither does she. Nobody wants. Tell me, who exactly would want such thing to happen?!
Each, is giving up. What else can each individual do? Nothing, to be precised.
Dear you,
这几天很想你
你应该是知道的
最近你的感觉是怎样的呢?
是温馨的吗?
我都很想知道
告诉我啦~
HAHAHA!
写给你的..
都有看吗?
你知道就好~
虽然不知道你会不会看到这些
但还是要写..
至少让以后的我, 知道..
我曾经有过这样的感觉
以后的我..
再回来看看这些
又会是怎样的心情呢?
是怀念, 还是庆幸?
怀念我曾经有过这些?
还是庆幸因为我曾经勇敢的尝试
所以有了所谓的 "今天" ?
其实
我很想要那天快点到来
因为从来没有那么积极过
就为了一个明明很陌生的人
却觉得不管怎样都应该要认识
你也会是这样吗?
对了, 我忘了
写太多了~
不好意思~~
最后想告诉你~
"我错过了太多于你有关的过去
接下来的, 我不想再错过了"
♥
Love,
Me.
"这种感觉, 此刻, 要我如何面对. 我要怎么和你往来, 你说说看~"
- 茉莉恋 by Jam Hsiao.
Monday, May 24, 2010, 21:45
Dear Shaari,
It's been a week and a day already. We're still missing you, you know that. Today, we had foreign students visiting us during the lab lesson. I'm very enthusiatic too. I practised hand rub/scrub.
:)
The foreign students complimented us too, you heard that right? :D
On a down note, do you remember? Anyway, that guy has not replied.
:(
I don't know whether I should keep going, hold on, or give up. I don't really know what my next step should be. I don't know whether things will become better if I persist. I don't know how things will eventually turn out to be like. I don't know..
:( help & tell me, would you?
This 26th, I'm going for it again. This time, I hope I can want what I want at least.
Miss you,
ZS!
It's been a week and a day already. We're still missing you, you know that. Today, we had foreign students visiting us during the lab lesson. I'm very enthusiatic too. I practised hand rub/scrub.
:)
The foreign students complimented us too, you heard that right? :D
On a down note, do you remember? Anyway, that guy has not replied.
:(
I don't know whether I should keep going, hold on, or give up. I don't really know what my next step should be. I don't know whether things will become better if I persist. I don't know how things will eventually turn out to be like. I don't know..
:( help & tell me, would you?
This 26th, I'm going for it again. This time, I hope I can want what I want at least.
Miss you,
ZS!
Friday, May 21, 2010, 19:52
Dear Shaari,
Thank you for coming into my dream last night, although it's only a minute or two.
:)
& I took up my courage for the skill tests today! It was supposed to be on the 25th, & I passed!
:D
Misses,
ZS!
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Recently, I know things around haven't been quite good. I'm still enduring. I really don't like the fact that people couldn't differentiate what's good for them. They take the bad ones, rather than the good ones.
What's this?!
It's not as if it's a very long commitment already.
It's a very selfish thinking when people don't think first before they talk, especially when it's life and death matters.
People struggled to live in those undeveloped countries, and over here, people are thinking about death.
Do you really think that's the right way for you right now?
Yes, you may think it doesn't matter.
Don't your loved ones matter?
& are you trying to say you're going to give up the world for one idiot? Man, things are getting worse.
People care, you ignore. People don't care, you think too much. People do similar things, you think they're together as one. People nag, you think they don't understand you. People scold, you get angry.
What's all these?!
You know people care, worry, love. Do you think you should get angry?
Thank you for coming into my dream last night, although it's only a minute or two.
:)
& I took up my courage for the skill tests today! It was supposed to be on the 25th, & I passed!
:D
Misses,
ZS!
--------------------------------
Recently, I know things around haven't been quite good. I'm still enduring. I really don't like the fact that people couldn't differentiate what's good for them. They take the bad ones, rather than the good ones.
What's this?!
It's not as if it's a very long commitment already.
It's a very selfish thinking when people don't think first before they talk, especially when it's life and death matters.
People struggled to live in those undeveloped countries, and over here, people are thinking about death.
Do you really think that's the right way for you right now?
Yes, you may think it doesn't matter.
Don't your loved ones matter?
& are you trying to say you're going to give up the world for one idiot? Man, things are getting worse.
People care, you ignore. People don't care, you think too much. People do similar things, you think they're together as one. People nag, you think they don't understand you. People scold, you get angry.
What's all these?!
You know people care, worry, love. Do you think you should get angry?
Thursday, May 20, 2010, 20:08
Dear Shaari,
I'm happy today, very joyful yet mentally tired. I enjoyed today, but I didn't pay much attention to lectures. Then during lab lesson, I suddenly thought of you wanting us to study hard.
I remember :)
Can I tell you a secret?
I'm going to bring up my courage & confess later! Horoscope said 20th is my lucky day for romance! You heard me? You saw this? Bless me, okay?
HEHEHE.
& time now, 08:08pm!
Miss you,
ZS!
I'm happy today, very joyful yet mentally tired. I enjoyed today, but I didn't pay much attention to lectures. Then during lab lesson, I suddenly thought of you wanting us to study hard.
I remember :)
Can I tell you a secret?
I'm going to bring up my courage & confess later! Horoscope said 20th is my lucky day for romance! You heard me? You saw this? Bless me, okay?
HEHEHE.
& time now, 08:08pm!
Miss you,
ZS!
Wednesday, May 19, 2010, 22:36
Dear Shaari,
It's Wednesday today already. Since morning, everyone has been very tired and sleepy. Still, we hanged on till after the memorial service.
During that, many turned up for it. Were you there? There's so many remembered you, liked you, missed you and you feel that? For this, I assured you that you'd been a very successful person in your life.
:)
You know what? I think I can be alone at night now. I miss you still, though. Then my friend said you won't want to see us like this.
You know what too? Everyone was stronger today, really. We didn't cry as much, didn't cry as hard, as we did that day. Again, we are still trying hard to accept the fact that you'd left us.
& because of you, I fell in love with "This, I Promise You". This shall be the song that whenever I listen, you'll appear in my mind immediately. This, I promise you.
:)
I miss you, love you too.
Love,
ZS!
It's Wednesday today already. Since morning, everyone has been very tired and sleepy. Still, we hanged on till after the memorial service.
During that, many turned up for it. Were you there? There's so many remembered you, liked you, missed you and you feel that? For this, I assured you that you'd been a very successful person in your life.
:)
You know what? I think I can be alone at night now. I miss you still, though. Then my friend said you won't want to see us like this.
You know what too? Everyone was stronger today, really. We didn't cry as much, didn't cry as hard, as we did that day. Again, we are still trying hard to accept the fact that you'd left us.
& because of you, I fell in love with "This, I Promise You". This shall be the song that whenever I listen, you'll appear in my mind immediately. This, I promise you.
:)
"Come into our dreams and then by day, we'll be well again." -- JP.
I miss you, love you too.
Love,
ZS!
Tuesday, May 18, 2010, 20:40
Dear Shaari,
It's the third day you left us.
Yesterday, we cried so hard in school. Everyone looked so tired with the puffy eyes. We just couldn't help, & if you were there, forgive us. You certainly know we missed you so much; you feel us. Don't you?
I would sometimes wonder, how helpless were you when you're gasping for your last breath? :(
Last night, the Facebook was filled with words for you. You saw that? Everyone missed you so much, we loved you.
I can't be alone at night, I missed you too much; I'd cry. Then, I messaged my friends. Some replied, some didn't. Still, I appreciated because "once in a lifetime, means there's no second chance". So, forgive.
Today, although I teared a little, I am stronger than yesterday. Are you glad? :)
& Shaari, I just made a video for you. Could I take it as the last thing I could do for us, on behalf of you?
Misses,
ZS!
It's the third day you left us.
Yesterday, we cried so hard in school. Everyone looked so tired with the puffy eyes. We just couldn't help, & if you were there, forgive us. You certainly know we missed you so much; you feel us. Don't you?
I would sometimes wonder, how helpless were you when you're gasping for your last breath? :(
Last night, the Facebook was filled with words for you. You saw that? Everyone missed you so much, we loved you.
I can't be alone at night, I missed you too much; I'd cry. Then, I messaged my friends. Some replied, some didn't. Still, I appreciated because "once in a lifetime, means there's no second chance". So, forgive.
Today, although I teared a little, I am stronger than yesterday. Are you glad? :)
& Shaari, I just made a video for you. Could I take it as the last thing I could do for us, on behalf of you?
Misses,
ZS!
Monday, May 17, 2010, 23:55
Dear Shaari,
Initially, I didn't have much good impression of you when I first met you. As the days go by, I found you being a very nice guy. I started to like you as my friend, when you "invited" me to the class "officially". It was through MSN, though.
I remember the attachment days with you. I love how confident you were, how knowledgeable you had been, how optimistic you could be, how..
I love people who are generous, that's why I love you. You insist in paying full amount for cab fees whenever you offer me a ride. When I offered to return you, your tone stumbled me.
People may say you were fierce, arrogant and all.
No, you were never those to me.
You urged me to study hard, when I once told you I felt like giving up this course.
You urged me to hang on, when I once told you I felt the stress and all.
I remember you telling me about another career choice -- air-stewardess. I don't quite remember, but I think you said if you were me, you would.
Can I fulfil that for you?
I'll see..
Love,
ZS!
Initially, I didn't have much good impression of you when I first met you. As the days go by, I found you being a very nice guy. I started to like you as my friend, when you "invited" me to the class "officially". It was through MSN, though.
I remember the attachment days with you. I love how confident you were, how knowledgeable you had been, how optimistic you could be, how..
I love people who are generous, that's why I love you. You insist in paying full amount for cab fees whenever you offer me a ride. When I offered to return you, your tone stumbled me.
People may say you were fierce, arrogant and all.
No, you were never those to me.
You urged me to study hard, when I once told you I felt like giving up this course.
You urged me to hang on, when I once told you I felt the stress and all.
I remember you telling me about another career choice -- air-stewardess. I don't quite remember, but I think you said if you were me, you would.
Can I fulfil that for you?
I'll see..
Love,
ZS!
Sunday, May 16, 2010, 11:32
No happiness in this entry.
No anger in this entry.
Only sadness, grief in this entry.
He, was the only one who invited & represented the class for inviting me to NR0808.
Thank you.
He, taught me a lot.
Thank you.
He, never show his impatience when I don't understand whatever things.
Thank you.
He was like a brother to me. Even when the others talked bad about him, about his words or behaviours, I couldn't care much. Those, didn't interact much with him, didn't know why but I still like him as much.
He gave me a lot of enlightenments. I appreciated.
Right now, I pray that my memory of him, the days we had, would never fade away. People might not know, but we were good together.
I like him, I love this friend. I thank God for having him in my life, not once before because he'll still leave a deep memory down my heart.
Too much, I've got too much to carry on.
Lastly, I miss you, SHAARI! YOU HEARD ME?!?!~~~~~~
:'(
No anger in this entry.
Only sadness, grief in this entry.
He, was the only one who invited & represented the class for inviting me to NR0808.
Thank you.
He, taught me a lot.
Thank you.
He, never show his impatience when I don't understand whatever things.
Thank you.
He was like a brother to me. Even when the others talked bad about him, about his words or behaviours, I couldn't care much. Those, didn't interact much with him, didn't know why but I still like him as much.
He gave me a lot of enlightenments. I appreciated.
Right now, I pray that my memory of him, the days we had, would never fade away. People might not know, but we were good together.
I like him, I love this friend. I thank God for having him in my life, not once before because he'll still leave a deep memory down my heart.
Too much, I've got too much to carry on.
Lastly, I miss you, SHAARI! YOU HEARD ME?!?!~~~~~~
:'(
Thursday, May 13, 2010, 23:25
Two presentations down, it's all over. The stress is gone, for the time being. Another thing to start getting my headache going would be, FYP.
Better updates this weekend, tired.
Better updates this weekend, tired.
Monday, May 10, 2010, 21:45
"When things aren't going your way, or everything is opposing, keep cool. It's not because you don't have your own say, but you have a better self-cultivation."
Sunday, May 9, 2010, 18:46
Still very busy for this, even though I wanted so much.
Thursday, May 6, 2010, 22:00
Too busy to blog.
Be back tomorrow or the day after tomorrow.
Be back tomorrow or the day after tomorrow.
Monday, May 3, 2010, 19:31
This is one of the reasons why the weather is terribly unbearable recently.
One person going VEG for one year
=
Reduces 3.267 pounds of CO2 emissions
+
Stops 5 person from starving
[we can feed 5 times more people if we use the land to grow crops directly for human instead of growing crops for livestock and then eating their meat]
+
Saves 25 lives
[24 chickens etc]
I KNOW YOU CAN IMAGINE.
Yes, I know.
Why must you be the one?
My answer would be what I'd quoted above.
Sunday, May 2, 2010, 19:56
I'm trying my best to cultivate a better personality in me.
I'm trying my best to keep cool, when disagreements and other things that would upset me.
All in all, I'm trying my best to keep everything in harmony.
For everyone is not perfect, that is why I will try my best to control my feelings and all to let harmony come in place -- like how it is in the first place.
When I try to do that, I hope people feel the sincerity and effort that I'd made. This is because there are too much angers, hatred, unpleasant feelings that can't be controlled in this world, hence hoping to influence people to maintain their real personality that they have -- kindness.
I'm trying my best to keep cool, when disagreements and other things that would upset me.
All in all, I'm trying my best to keep everything in harmony.
For everyone is not perfect, that is why I will try my best to control my feelings and all to let harmony come in place -- like how it is in the first place.
When I try to do that, I hope people feel the sincerity and effort that I'd made. This is because there are too much angers, hatred, unpleasant feelings that can't be controlled in this world, hence hoping to influence people to maintain their real personality that they have -- kindness.
"All men have a mind which cannot bear to see the sufferings of others. The superior man, having seen the animals alive, cannot bear to see them die; having heard their dying cries, he cannot bear to eat their flesh."
-- Confucianism
Saturday, May 1, 2010, 21:33
Everyone wants you.
Many pretty ones surround you often.
& I'm just sad, because I'm so far from you.
& if only you read my blog.
Many pretty ones surround you often.
& I'm just sad, because I'm so far from you.
& if only you read my blog.