Sunday, March 29, 2009, 22:42

She really looks like the younger me!

& she likes to be.. dirty? As in, because every time I wanna clean her mouth after eating, she'll cry or something! Even changing her baju also cannot -.-!

Oh, she 'loves' salivating. Almost everyone got it on their uniform, luckily not mine, hahahahahaha!

It's sometimes not a good thing to know many things which others don't know. It applies to me & it feels.. bad.

Anyway, I'm left with a week of attachment in this ward. I really have got lots of thoughts running in my mind, especially when I'm attaching in there.

How does it feel when you approach a crying child and he/she came wanting you to hold him/her but you were helpless as somebody forbids you?

How does it feel when you see a not-even-a-month-old baby crying loudly when he/she was given some suctioning through his/her nose & mouth?

How does it feel when you see a child struggling when doctor/nurses wanted to draw blood from his/her small arm?

How does it feel when you heard a child crying miserably somewhere and you just can't seem to find him/her?


How would you feel?


My heart shattered again and again. The blood just can't seem to stop bleeding for them.

& many a time, I just can't give them stern looks nor can I not give in to them or something.


What can I do?

我想要学会自我催眠
痛觉会少一些
潜意识作祟想着想到失眠
我躺在没有你的房间
寂寞更加明显
我渐渐的自我催眠
却回不到从前

我会不说不想说
怕说了也没有用
现在我的幽默
只是掩饰着心痛我的难过

自我催眠 - 罗志祥